Ink • [BLM] [ACAB] @ink@higgs.boson.blue

I used to consider myself a lesbian. I don't, anymore, for a few reasons.

I don't have a "given name", I have a *taken* name. I stole it. I dare you to make me give it back

I'm some freak who can't even be queer right

I'm not nonbinary. I must be faking it for attention. look at all those other nonbinary people out there. they don't look like me. I'm too queer and not queer enough.

ughhh personal growth is hard I don't wanna. I want to be ok.

is this the hormones. am I having a bad time emotionally because it's getting close to the end of the week and my hormones are running low?

I go on for months thinking I'm a whole person and then one bad night I discover new ways in which I'm utterly broken

am I united with the queer community in the lack of belonging? or is that a contradiction?

does the abstract concept of belonging matter to me because it's intrinsically important or because society told me it is?

if nowhere is home, does that mean everywhere is home?

what does home even mean?

at this point is it more about home or the search itself?

I don't fit in with mainstream queer culture. I don't like the same music, I don't wear the same clothes, I don't speak the same slang. I'm wrong. I'm a weirdo who doesn't even fit in with the other weird folk.

these are high school-level social problems. why do I even care.

sprongis mezergo

ooh boy I'm back on playing Dwarf Fortress again

coming out as trans so hard that you make your friends question their genders

"correct grammar" is an exercise in class signaling

imagining a grammarian pissing and shitting themself over use of singular they

this is my Tillandsia caput-medusae. first because I could take a picture of it without getting out of bed.

plant pictures when

plants are good. I like plants.

dishwasher and laundry pods are inferior to a bottle of the respective sauce

I'm listening to No Son Of Mine by Genesis and having trans feelings